so my friend writes an email to her soon to be exhusband and she puts it in a blog. the woman that her husband left her for writes her to say don’t put that kinda shit in a blog post!! thought this was a free country.
day 1 August 22, 2008
ok on new meds and boy does it work. lithium is a killer drug. i am so calm its sick. we shall see how this progresses. i hope all will be ok. i am tried and want to be normal for once. will update later.
why me??? August 19, 2008
I am so tired of being unstable with my moods. I am not the type that would harm someone but one day i cna be happy and so sad its pitiful in the same day!! I am so sick of it. I want to be stable for once in my life. I am tired of not having a clue why i am sad or happy i want to be stable for myself and taylor and john. i want to be normal again.
I hav ebeen crying for an hr now. i don’t know why and just want to stop!!
My day yesterday… July 25, 2008
It was stressful for one.
I went to the doctor for my Bipolar/ADHD. I am on a medicine called Abilify(is a registered name) and an antidepressant that will help me sleep. The Abilify is making me sleepy but she said to give it time to even out before we make any changes. The office was so nice to be there. Very welcoming. So far, I am mellow when medicine is in my system but towards the evening it wears off and I get snappy. I knew that would happen. I just need to figure out that time and take the other med before it happens. Need to keep Mrs. Hyde in check. That is how I feel right now Dr. Jeckle and Mrs. Hyde lol. I am working on making myself better. I hope it hurrys along safely.
Update Tuesday… (making my own days.) July 22, 2008
So I am updating weekly hopefully on this day.
Taylor is being a turd as always. But I love my little one. John is working is arse off and being a butt. But what man doesn’t.
Me this week. I dealt with a person attacking me about my views on certain Vaccines they give children. I held my first CAW gathering. Loved it and had a good time. Wasn’t extremely formal was pleasant. So, We are officially a Proto-Nest (forming). The 10th of AUG is our next gathering and the 16th of Aug. we are going to go and see the Moon Bow In KY!!! We are considering Camping out at that time also. I am so excited!! Other then that I am doing ok. I stay tired alot. I am waiting for the blood test results to see what is up. I hope its nothing and I can just take meds for my mood disorder and be fine. I just wish I knew now. What does it take 2 wks? grrrrrr. My tummy stays upset. I wonder if the soy meats we were eating caused us to have upset tummies? Well I hope not. I also hope that our tummies get better in this house. I am so tired of runny poo diapers. I miss the solid ones that were so easy to clean up. I know some may find me odd for missing a certain type of poopydiaper but I cloth diaper and omg you would miss it too.
John goes the to doctor this afternoon. I hope he gets a complete physical and tells them what is going on. I hate it when he locks up and says I am fine. Some Men can be so aggravating sometimes.
I am sorry for ranting but heck this is MY blog.
If anyone wants to knwo more of my views on things then comment a subject for me to think on. Tomorrow is WORDLESS WENESDAY!!! I hope I get a pic that is worthy. I hate not having one lol.
Crow’s Proto-Nest (Forming) and other things. July 15, 2008
That is the title of the Chuch We are forming!! I am excited. I am the Nest Coordinator and am blown away with all the warmth I fee now that I have found my home. I feel this was my calling. I just hope that I can meet everyone’s expectations. I am so happy that I just can’t find the words. I can’t wait for this first meeting of our nest. Its on July 20th. Part of me is nervous the other part is so excitedI want to scream.
On another note. I just went thru all of Taylor’s older clothes and well I have to figure out what I can part with. I don’t want to cause that means she is growing up. I uploaded all the pics from my camera can you believe I had 355!!!! on there. I just can’t believe I took that many between Jan. till now. I am ashamed I haven’t been keeping my pics and blog updated.
I got sick from something and my belly still hurts. Other thne that all is well. John is doing great as always. We all have doctor’s appointments coming up for checkups. Maybe I can get my mental medication? I hope so. Other then that I don’t have much to say. Will post again soon.
I hate spiders… They cost us to much… July 10, 2008
June 30th I was bitten by a spider we didn’t know what it was. That was a monday.
Tuesday- it still hurt and I didn’t know it was actually a spider yet but omg it was red and was forming a knot and a small hole inside it.
Wednesday- it was hurting badly. i was watching my nephews and John came home early from work. told me to make an appt to see a doctor. I called Tidwell’s office and they said to get in quick. So we packed up 3 kids under the age of 3 and went to the doctors office. I get there and low and behold its a stupid BROWN RECLUSE!! I was freaking out inside. John was just wanting to leave the doctors office. Well that part cost us about $100!!!! John was pissed. Then we had to get a Rx filled and well that was about another $55 and John was even more upset. He was more worried about the money. I was worried about the hole that could form in my belly.
Thrusday- first follow up visit. she said it was doing great. Bruising was from the two shots I got for the bite.
Monday- Second follow up visit. I was feeling like poop but she said it was doing well. I still had a bruise. She told me to stop the steriods thinking it was making me sick. I still feel like poop from it.
Thrusday- I still feel like shit. My hole is Healing ok just really feel like crap. I need to figure a way to make myself feel better. I have read and heard from say that I will feel this way for a while due to the venom. I just hate that I feel this way. My whole life is suffering.
Does anyone want to come and take my place for a day?
so to start something new. July 10, 2008
I need some motivation. I don’t know how many people read my blog but if you guys want me to write tell me. I want to start a new crafting project. I am thinking I will sew Taylor something what I don’t know but I will. I just need to get the supplies. and that takes moeny. I need to try to write at least once a week if not daily. IF you read my blog please leave a comment saying so.
I think I am going to do it. I am going to make things and try to sell them. I need to find a niche to get into. Anyone have any ideas? I am so lost.
I will post more later.
well sorry its been so long…. June 28, 2008
Well it has been some time. I have been going nuts with cleaning house and trying to maintain it and feeling bad. I don’t want to feel bad but I just do. I really wish I felt better.
Well I am going to start working on making wipes and diapers. I keep starting and lose motivation. I am setting a deadline and pushing myself to do it . I can’t wait to finally get to be able to help people get cloth diapers and use them. I am wondering how I could help people get a starter set and try it out. Going to have to work on that some more. If anyone wants to help with donating money or diapers or wipes to a great cause contact www.MircleDiapers.org
So Tinker is driving me insane. She keeps wanting to play on the stairs. She has already fell down them once. I am not going to let her do it again. I worry so much about that. She is doing really well health wise. Cloth diapers are working out well for her. I even switched to Cloth Wipes. It is so much easier. I am hoping she will start talking more soon. She is trying pretty hard.
John and I are doing ok. We have our moments but its all good. I am working really hard to keep the house clean and its starting to suck my dry. I have days where I can’t do anything but veg out. I really want to clean but my body says NOPE. I just wish I could take something to make it all better.
School is getting close and I am getting nervous. I know I will be fine but part of me is like ummm WTF am I getting myself into. I just hope I suceed. That is what I am scared of. Being a big fat FAILURE!! Lord I wish I could take a school pill too.
soo i got a surprise May 16, 2008
I asked for help and the women on Diaperswappers.com fufilled it. I have cried at each package I have recieved. We are in a finacal bind right now and when the doctor told me she couldn’t wear disposable diapers anymore. I was heart broken. We didnt’ have the money to buy more diapers for her. So I turned to the forum that I have been a memeber of for almost a year and asked for help. Well that request has been filled. I have recieved so many words of encouragement and recieved diapers and other supplies it just warms my heart. I send my thanks to each and everyone of you! So does my daughter. I love her diapers they all have not leaked once and are working so well. Thank you again.
